September 30, 2008

Day 30 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

I practiced 3rd eye meditation really late. I focused between the brows until the energy built up. I almost fell asleep after that but remained conscious when I noticed that my head had shifted to the right by itself and then back. It was a sense of flashing from one position to another and not an actual movement.

September 29, 2008

Day 29 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Third eye meditation practiced late night. Felt some pressure next to my left temple, the sensation felt like it was travelling down my ear canal. That sharp static sound was present. Meditated for 15 minutes.

Bird's Eye View

I had several false awakenings this morning where I was becoming somewhat lucid. In one FA I was in my garden and suddenly I noticed something on the ground. Not sure what it was. As I focused intently on that particular point I began to float upwards. I began moving upwards rapidly, there was no conscious control on my part. It got to the point where I was looking down at a bird's eye view of my town which was just incredible. I couldn't seem to keep my excitement under control as I continued upwards and soon I was looking down at the round shaped planet Earth.

Unfortunately I can't remember what happened next but this is one of those experiences where I know that something more took place.

September 28, 2008

Day 28 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated at night on third eye, after meditation fell asleep.

September 27, 2008

Day 27 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated at 12:20pm for 15 minutes. Had a hard time keeping myself still, the mind chattering was not helping either. Worked on deep breathing. I continued to focus on my breathing eventually being aware of my silent mind, feeling quite peaceful and also like I was floating.

September 26, 2008

Day 26 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Practiced 3rd eye meditation late at night for 10 minutes. Felt sensations of energy swirling in my head, same as usual.

September 25, 2008

Day 25 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Practiced third eye meditation - didn't bother with deep breathing and working on relaxing. I think the more concentrated my focus is on something the quicker and easier it is to relax.

This past week I've been experiencing a lot of sensations around the solar plexus, sacral and heart chakras.

The solar plexus and sacral chakra feel like pulsating sensations whereas in the heart chakra I can feel fluttering and sinking sensations.

September 24, 2008

Day 24 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

I practiced the 3rd Eye Meditation at night time for 10 minutes. It seems the more I practice this the more the energy sensations intensify inside my head.

September 23, 2008

Day 23 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

I meditated at 8:15pm for an unexpected 25 minutes. The first 5 minutes I focused on relaxing by breathing deeply. The muscles in my face, especially around my eyes, felt incredibly tense so I focused on relaxing these tensions. As I relaxed more I felt tingling sensations around my feet.

Eventually I became aware of being in a calm, peaceful state where I had no awareness of my body. I remained in this state for a few minutes before I opened my eyes.

September 22, 2008

Day 22 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

I practiced concentration meditation by simply focusing on the breath, at 5:10pm for 10 minutes. I rested my head on a bigger/higher pillow during this session.

A few minutes in a calm state I felt forceful upward sensations several times and a few jolts. These sensations were very different from usual and I think they were a result of changing a flat pillow for a higher one. Maybe my spine wasn’t straight enough, of course, I’m just making assumptions. It could really be any number of things.

I have a tendency to end my sessions when I experience these sensations excessively. During these IBMs or odd sensations I become too alert that my awareness is back on my body. However, I do feel calm and relaxed enough to meditate a bit deeper. I don’t plan on increasing the time I spend on meditation, 10-15 minutes is more than plenty, at least for now.

Since my recent astral experience I’ve been hearing a persisting static sound in both ears, mostly in the right, throughout the day. Thankfully, it’s not as loud and sharp. I experienced this before and it was during a time when I was practicing meditation. It might be that my sense of hearing is becoming sharper.

September 21, 2008

Day 21 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Third Eye meditation practiced at 9:15pm for 15 minutes. This time prior to meditating I made an effort to practice deep breathing until I felt relaxed. The pressures and energy in my head and around my forehead were building up in intensity. I actually wanted to meditate for a bit longer but got interrupted by a knock on the door.

September 20, 2008

Day 20 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Third Eye meditation practiced once again night time, only this time I practiced it for 5 minutes since I felt far too sleepy to continue.

September 19, 2008

Day 19 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Third Eye meditation practiced at night time for 10 minutes. I couldn’t quite focus today.

Energy Work

Last night I woke up at 12:30 am finding it difficult to go back to sleep. I read through some of my Abraham-Hicks material and listened to some workshops which were very uplifting. After about an hour I began to feel really good for no particular reason and simply found myself in a state of bliss. I realised getting high on positive emotions wasn't exactly helping me fall asleep, but, I would much rather get high than fall into a slumber.

The positive buzz continued for a while until 3:00am when I felt somewhat ready for sleep. Drifting off, I consciously told myself that I will become more aware of my dreams.

I realised I was in a dream, watching a scene from the TV show Ghost Whisperer. Melinda Gordon, the main character, sat at a table in a quiet restaurant and it seemed at first that she was alone until the ghostly form of a young boy appeared. She lighted in her usual cheery disposition and I knew when the young boy disappeared she had helped him cross over. She moved on to the next table where she stared intently at the chair across from her. There was nothing to be seen except for an empty chair. I wondered what it was. Looking at the expression on her face it seemed she too was oblivious and yet there was a mixture of curiosity, confusion and shock present in her expression.

Being as curious as my DC I zoomed in to the chair. I wonder now, why I never started a conversation with my DC. I need to make a note of at least saying a simple 'hi' next time.

As I focused on the chair I found myself, instantaneously, in my bed, awake and almost completely paralysed. I felt my left arm rise up above my belly with my palm faced down. It was just hanging in the air without my control and each time I tried bringing it back down I felt a very powerful magnetic pull and eventually gave up. Tried getting up which was also difficult. I noticed my arm moving in a circular motion. Suddenly, my right arm lifted up on my side and I had absolutely no control whatsoever. Thinking I was being possessed by a negative force sent me straight into a state of fear. I managed to discard this conclusion, realising it was based on my fearful reaction. It was time for some observations without the clutter of irrational thoughts.

My arm continued to move in the same circular motion for a long time and I managed to remain calm. Eventually, I felt a sensation in my belly, it felt like the movement of energy swirling around. I thought what was occurring was a form of energy work and perhaps it occurs every time in the sleep state without my conscious participation. The idea of energy work just clicked with me.

After this I began having many, very vivid FAs and in between these FAs I would find myself in bed floating out of my body. I noticed that when I floated out, my body would eventually sink and I would find myself in the void. This occurred repetitively.

During one notable FA, I was in the middle of searching for my shoes. I began wearing it only my feet would not go in as if they had grown much larger or my shoes had shrunk. Realising how ridiculous this sounded I got the feeling that I was in a dream state. I looked around; it was too dark for me to see anything clearly. I leaned my hand on something and had a visual of a bed post in my mind. I looked down at where my hand covered a solid part of the same bed. Anything so solid leaves me in doubt, so I began wondering if I was sleep walking and slowly waking up in the process. I have a similar bed in a spare room, so all evidence was pointing towards sleep walk. I have a tendency to make this check because as a young child I did often sleep walk, or so I’ve been told. Once as a teenager, while in a sleep state I grabbed my duvet, got up and started waltzing around with my duvet, much to the amusement of my family members.

Anyways, at some point, some time between the FAs, I was stuck in my bed or perhaps it was my body. I was able to see my room although it was somewhat dark. I noticed a frilly curtain over my blinds which did not belong there. Then my drawer, across the room on the right hand side, vanished and just as quickly, reappeared. This went on for what seemed like an eternity, seeing flashes of my bedroom furniture. Bored, I decided to try and make other things appear. I visualized a palm tree and was able to see faint outlines, only it did not completely manifest. There was really no level of control on my part. Looking back now, I should have asked for assistance.

I patiently waited, hoping that I can explore beyond these altered states of consciousness. I then felt the oncoming of a static sound and braced myself for I knew what was to follow. It started off faint, almost inaudible until it grew in intensity and loudness. Then there was that horrible vibration in my right ear that I dreaded, as if something big was squeezing out due to the sound. I felt quite squeamish and struggled to wake up until eventually, I shot upwards, opened my eyes and woke up at 4:20am.

September 18, 2008

Day 18 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

I practiced third eye meditation at 9:00 pm for 10 minutes. A short while later I fell asleep until around 12:30am.

September 17, 2008

Day 17 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated at night time for exactly 15 minutes. I used the third eye meditation. Initially I felt energy sensations in my head and eventually, there was an intense pressure between my brows, which I'm quite familiar with since practicing third eye meditations.

15 minutes later I almost jumped out of bed alarmed by an unusual sound. Upon returning to normal waking consciousness I realised it was the sound of me snoring or struggling to breathe.

September 16, 2008

Day 16 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated night time. Relaxing seemed incredibly difficult even after using deep breathing method.

Brain Massage

At 6:00 am this morning sleep was interrupted by an annoying external sound. I went to the toilet in an incredibly groggy state and by the time I got back to bed I felt more awakened. A short while later the grogginess returned and I found myself becoming conscious of falling asleep. As I entered deeper I remember wishing I could fall asleep like that forever.

I experienced mild buzzing sensations, these were different than the usual. It felt like something zapping my brain and sending waves of electric charges with audible sounds. I remember feeling it mostly on the left side. It was rather pleasant and felt like a nice brain massage.

A screen appeared,I observed it trying my best to focus on the writings. At the time I was able to read it, however now I can't recall much. I do recall that I became somewhat confused and as a result was losing consciousness.

I continued to focus on the screen in a sort of dreamy state until slowly I became completely aware and my consciousness sort of zoomed out of focus and sucked into an active scene. Here a man was arguing and it seemed I was hovering above him. I wonder now if he really was arguing because my recollection of it seems hazy.

I awakened about 40 mins later and was still incredibly groggy and the same brain massage returned. At that point I remembered everything with great clarity. I thought of grabbing my notebook and pen to jot down some quick notes before I forget everything. Unfortunately that did not work out and I fell into a really sleepy state where I had some vivid dreams.

September 15, 2008

Day 15 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Practiced night time, seemed like I was putting too much effort and did not even bother with breathing technique.

September 14, 2008

Day 14 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated late at night again and drifted off to sleep. I had a few problems with relaxing prior to the meditation. I'm going to try meditate a bit earlier in the day.

September 13, 2008

Day 13 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated very late at night. I had a lot on my mind which made it difficult to relax.


I've had violent dreams before but nothing compares to the series of nightmares I had this morning. The first few nightmares were not too scary - however there was blood. It was the last nightmare that made me wake up in a sweat at 5:00 am. I do not want to disclose the contents of this dream but lets just say there was a lot of cutting and a lot of blood. In the dream I experienced a lot of fear and as I woke up it took a while for me to recover.

Funnily enough, last night I asked for assistance from my higher self to help me become aware in my dreams. I don't really know much about higher selves but I'm pretty sure ones higher self does not resort to scare tactics.

I'm not sure where dreams come from altogether - are they a reflection of hidden issues, our inner selves in cryptic form? Or perhaps they are just of our own creation?

September 12, 2008

Day 12 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Started meditation at night time. After breathing exercise I intended to connect with my higher self/inner being. I spent a few minutes asking for this connection and for some assistance in my spiritual development. I also asked for some lucid dreams and help with becoming more aware in my dreams.

During the meditation there was the usual sensations and movement in my head. I went deep enough to the point where I became conscious of my body slowly going in to sleep mode. Eventually fell asleep and had some incredibly disturbing dreams - next post.

September 11, 2008

Day 11 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated early morning, although I was still a bit groggy. Entered SP state, while in this state I sensed a presence at one side of my room. From the corner of my eyes I was able to see the shape of a person sitting down. I did not panic, instead I tried to see if I could somehow get out. I moved my fingers and snapped out, wide awake.

Meditated a second time in the evening. During this session within a few minutes my right arm raised up and flopped back down. I think I became aware of my body falling asleep, noticed changes in my breathing which became much slower. Eventually I began gasping for air in fear that I had stopped breathing. I ended the session after 10 minutes and decided to try it again. This time I felt some very pleasant fuzzy sensations in my head. This meditation lasted 20 minutes, I think I could've gone deeper but was interrupted by the phone ringing. When I got up the sensations were present for a few minutes.

September 10, 2008

Day 10 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Prepared for meditation at 9:30 pm by practicing deep breathing for 5 minutes. With each inhale and exhale I could feel energy building up in my head . There was also some pressure at the top of my head. I focused on my breathing and commenced todays meditation. It was a lot easier to relax today, contrary to yesterdays session.

After 10 minutes I opened my eyes - it seems that I know exactly when my 10 minutes are over. Well, today I felt like meditating twice so I closed my eyes and within a minute I heard a female voice saying 'use'. Startled, I instantly opened my eyes and ended the session.

I think I could've heard a complete sentence had I not been so alarmed. Maybe next time. Overall todays meditation felt like a really refreshing nap.

September 9, 2008

Day 9 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Something I experienced earlier today was sensations in my heart chakra. They were flutterring sensations- had this a few times before where in the center point of my chest I would feel an unusual movement. I'm not sure that this is relevant to todays meditation report but just thought I'd get this off my chest.

Meditated really late past midnight - I had a lot on my mind so it was harder to keep my mind still and relax.

September 8, 2008

Day 8 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated at 9:00 am for 10 minutes. I ended the session as I felt really sleepy. I've noticed some changes since starting my meditation challenge, I no longer experience involuntary body movements and involuntary smiles followed by bursts of wonderful emotions. A few months ago IBMs were common in my sessions - they occurred in almost every sessions.

One thing that I've changed deliberately is my meditation timetable. Previously I meditated in the evening around 6-7pm but now I only have time to meditate late at night this is however temporary.

I do feel I'm making progress with this challenge. Overall, I seem to be mostly in a calm state of mind throughout the day.

September 7, 2008

Day 7 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated at night time for 10 minutes, felt refreshed. There was some external noise but I managed to continue with the meditation. My sensitivity to external noise is somewhat diminishing, maybe with more practice I can probably meditate under any conditions.

September 6, 2008

Lucid Factory

I figured that I had this lucid dream sometime after the 'Faceless Spirit Guide' experience.

I'm in an elevator with a few other people. I notice a man standing right in front of me and smiling. Then I notice that every other person (about 5 more) are staring at me with a large grin on their face. I realize I'm dreaming, with some excitement I smile back. I begin to speak, and tell each of these dream characters that if this is a dream I will make each of them disappear. I started by obliterating the first person I noticed with a simple desire for him to disappear.

Then I made the rest disappear almost at once. I had an urge to explore the building I was in. I got closer to the elevator doors and noticed a gap somewhere on the side. I thought it would be wise to take a peep through this gap so as to prevent any kind of shocking surprises when I step out of the elevator. What I saw seemed like a factory with a few people inside. End of recall.

The Faceless Spirit Guide

After the meditation session fell asleep but with the possibility of astral projecting I affirmed that I will meet my spirit guide.

Eventually became aware of vibrations which was a lot more subtle than usual. Felt a buzzing sensation in my head. My vision was blurry at first but then I was able to make out a section of my bedroom and noticed I was sleeping on my side. I closed my eyes and in that instant a male figure with no facial features appeared before me. I took my time in trying to observe rather than freak out. The figure looked human with black wavy short hair except for the face which I think may have been distorted by my blurry vision and appeared to have no features.

My observations revealed that I was being observed, not by just one being. It seemed more of these beings filled up the space of wherever I was. They were sort of huddling behind the first figure I saw. I can't say what happened next since my recall ends there.

I've heard that when you meet your spirit guide you just know, without a shadow of doubt it's your spirit guide, the same goes for higher self. I'm not concluding that I met my spirit guide because honestly I don't know.

Day 6 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

This morning I was listening to hemi-sync 'sleep exploration' and within 10 minutes I was drifting off so decided to meditate instead. I had an unusual experience during this mornings meditation. Within 10 minutes or so I heard a clicking sound in my head which made me open my eyes and end the session. After this session I decided to sleep again and had a very interesting astral experience followed by a lucid dream.

September 5, 2008

Day 5 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated night time for 15 minutes, at the end felt incredibly refreshed.

September 4, 2008

Day 4 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated, once again at night time. When practicing deep breathing felt incredibly light headed. Decided to make this an active meditation by focusing on my chakras and balancing them. I did feel sensations in each chakra but they were very subtle.

September 3, 2008

Day 3 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated night time for 10 minutes. I was already relaxed so that helped. Less energy sensations, however, I felt my facial muscles twitch excessively especially around my eyes.

September 2, 2008

Day 2 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

Meditated night time before falling asleep.

The experience was similar to day 1. I practiced late so towards the end I did feel really sleepy.

Day 1 of 30 Day Meditation Challenge

I began last nights meditation session with the deep breathing technique. Half way through the session which lasted about 15 to 20 minutes, I felt an intense amount of energy in my head.

September 1, 2008

The 30 Day Meditation Challenge

The last two months has been the most hectic period of my life - I won't bore anyone with the details, in fact it's far too long to even begin with. Certain situations have escalated to the point where I am forced to take a clearer, broader look at myself.

It's time for some introspection and what better way to do this than to meditate (more often). In August I've neglected meditating to the point where I haven't been meditating at all. I had plenty of opportunities to meditate however I've managed quite unconsciously to allow excuses. I think it's mostly to do with lack of motivation which is simply my reaction from certain issues I'm experiencing.

It's the 1st of the month and I've decided to use this as my excuse to begin a 30 Day Meditation Challenge. So as of today, everyday for 30 days in consecutive order I will appoint 15 minutes for my meditation practice.

I'm not sure what my purpose is for this challenge although I believe the underlying goal is to attain peace for which I am in much need of. I do not have any expectations from taking up this challenge other than I can only benefit from this.