September 28, 2010

Star Drop UFO

I woke up at 6:30am vividly recalling a UFO experience. The thing is I can't recall what time it occured coz I went to bed at 11:30pm woke up again at 2:45am and fell asleep once again at 3:10am but I can't seem to pinpoint the time.

I was in bed just waiting for sleep to kick in. I look out the window and something feels very different. The stars look unusually bright and there is a particular star that I always see in a particular spot. Something dropped from this star and the star dimmed, there was a cylinder case - this is what I thought of it, a case and not a spacecraft but regardless it gently landed on my neighbours roof. I did not panic. I remained absolutely still excited but knew not to get up lest this visitor flee from my curious nature.

I breathed in deeply, stunned and in awe I really had no idea what to expect. A part of the cylinder opened like a door and a bright light swooshed in my room through the window at lightning speed.

It was like a small light that had no particular size or shape, in fact it was constantly morphing. There is a warm radiation emitting from this spectalur light, its glow felt like it was wrapping its arms around me. I've never felt so happy in my life. I felt the light was a guardian, perhaps an angelic force as it had that warm angelic feel to it. At some point the light tried to get inside my left eye.

Unfortunately the light also had a sedative effect, my eyelids kept shutting by themselves. My body just wanted to shut down but I kept prying open my eyes to get a good look at the light, to observe and try to comprehend what was taking place. Eventually I passed out.

September 27, 2010

Dream Guidance

In the past few days I feel like I have been guided in my dreams. Guidance with how or what to eat and other stuff. I get this big chunk of knowledge that I'm supposed to bring back. However, it is hard to recall it in detail but the lessons are embedded within the database in my head.

I wake up feeling that some lesson was taught and once learned on some level I bring it back but I can't even articulate it.

Obviously this is no accident since after reading the Essene Gospel of Peace a few days ago I decided to request help from Angels to teach me what I need to know something that I have done many times before only this time I seem more open and allowing.

September 25, 2010

Effortless Meditation

After a long absence from meditation y'day I managed to meditate without really planning it.

After some contemplation I relaxed and went into a state of meditation - initially there was some mental chatter, some imagery and then silence. When I ended it I felt quite refreshed and amazed that I didn't get shocked out of it.

I think I may be able to meditate more often but I don't want to plan it out or dedicate a certain time of the day to it - I will allow it to happen when it happens. It's more easier that way and almost no effort is required.

September 22, 2010

Fire Escape Dream

I'm in a relative's house - there are other relatives around me and people I've never met. My host is telling me to help myself to some of the food he cooked. I see my ex and start to feel a mix of emotions, awkward and happy at the same time. He approaches me and tells me that I should try the sweet and savoury pudding as I will enjoy it more. It seems he knows that I've stopped eating animal products. I want to say something to him but the presence of my mum and other relatives are making the situation even more awkward.

I help myself to some food as my ex walks away. Old emotions are resurfacing and resulting in feeling regret and guilt. There are some kids playing around in a bedroom - I find a shelf and grab some music albums realizing they belong to my ex. I can't help but smile as I rummage through his things but slyly put them back before he catches me. I know he's somewhere in the house keeping his distance.

Mum and eldest sister are calling out to me telling me to get my nephew R since we're leaving. I see R amongst the kids, holding his hand together we're walking down a long corridor. There is a girl about 8 years old walking beside us seeing us off. We walk inside another kitchen set on fire. The flames are blue. There's an exit door but it would be difficult to get through there - a hundred thoughts are running through my head in that one instant which is why I am so confused about what to do. We're back in the corridor, I'm shouting out that there's a fire in the house but nobody hears me. Panic sets in as the fire rages.

I look at my nephew - he is priority if there is anything I do I must take him out safe to his mother. I tell the girl that she has to go and tell everyone else that there's a fire and for them to try and escape. I'm sad that I couldn't just take her with me or let her take my nephew to safety.

I hold his hand and make him run with me through another doorway until we are outside. I'm looking for his mum until I catch a glimpse of some relatives and tell them to call the fire brigade while I go back to help the rest. They inform me that there are fires starting like this in other places.

As I run back to the house the dream starts to fade.

September 20, 2010

Salvia Insights

Yesterday afternoon I started getting some insights into the nature of physical reality:

  • Energy is in all things - whether animate or inanimate
  • Blessing anything will make it work positively
  • Cursing anything will cause the thing to dysfunction
  • Emotions play a big role in one's life the more dark emotions you harbor, the more dark your experiences and the more positive the emotions the more positive experiences you will have - this is stuff that I already learnt from lots of Law of Attraction material but now I know it
  • Food has energy - the energy of food is dependent on the intention of the person who grew the food, processed it and of the person who consumes it - a lot of what Anastasia says about growing food and ones space of love makes so much more sense now
  • Your higher self - by that I mean your true Self has relatives in that One and true reality that I am still trying to figure out.
  • Salvia doesn't shift the physical reality - it gives you a new pair of eyes or glasses - changes the lens to something much more stronger

September 18, 2010

Scorpion Totem Dream

In this dream my parents and I are in a room, my mum tells me she is looking for a really dangerous insect at which point I'm scared because my feet are bare and I know if it crawls my way it's gonna bite.

We're scanning the room until I see something in the distance - I point at it hoping mum would catch it. Holding a dustpan and brush, she chases after the little bugger. I see it more clearly - it's a scorpion and it's crawling closer to me. Surprisingly I don't faint - dream starts to fade here.

The scorpion like the snake is also related to transformation.

September 8, 2010

The Great Fall and The Great Depression

The Great Fall - Vivid Dream
I am on the balcony of a building - I try to get out looking for the staircase or even an elevator but neither are to be found. Then I look down from the balcony and feel nauesous being too high up. I see there is a really long ladder going down and ponder for a while how dangerous it is but I have no other option (aside from jumping). I get ready but the ladder starts to collapse, relieved that I didn't get down on it. I walk to the left noticing a kind of platform hung near one side of the building and feel I've found my way out. Once on this platform I think it's going down on auto until I notice that there is actually nothing attached to the platform and that it is falling down ready to impact on the ground along with me. I try to grab on the side, not really panicking but realizing that there's nothing else that can be done other than to surrender to my impending departure. I spread my arms out and let go with the platform no longer beneath me I am free falling.

The Great Depression - False Awakening
I am slowly waking up in bed still groggy, I see my sister is sitting on the chair - she is telling me something about depression. I begin to speak still very sleepy I tell her about what I have been feeling like since y'day afternoon. From y'day I have been feeling so utterly depressed and nothing physically really triggered it. It is a seriously overwhelming sadness for which I can't find a reason. I remember her asking me why I feel depressed but just fell asleep. Now, in PR I would never really open up about my feeling depressed so I don't know if it was an FA or actual. As for the depression, it is still present but not so overwhelming.

September 7, 2010

Chakra Work Reflections

I have wondered why it seems I have lost the ability to AP, at least the one's that use to happen without much effort never occur. I never get my previous astral exit signs (spinning, vibration, high pitch sound etc).

I thought maybe my desire to AP has diminished which could explain why I rarely have these experiences.

In terms of chakra and in relation to the Kundalini awakening what is occuring now is lower chakra work - one sign of this is my recent obsession with health and things very much earthly.
As a result of this all my energy is being channeled in these areas and the other areas such as AP etc which are related to upper chakras are working in a very different way now. I think the upper area is working deeply on expanding intuition which since this year has been going through a lot of fine tuning.

The Invisible Book

I fell asleep around 5am (was awake since 1am). Before falling asleep I was wondering whether I'd be able to AP but then I didn't really care much for it which explains the absence of these experiences.

In a dream I'm looking all over the house for my journal and realize I left it on the bed - I hold this book, it is so solid in my hands and now I'm really awake in this dream scene. I turn the book over in my hands but it becomes translucent - I can feel it in my hands but it is almost completely invisible, there's just a slight glimmer of the edging. I want to read through it, at least the title but nothing is there.

In this state I could feel a signal from my physical body and know that I need to empty my bladder - can feel a slight pain from fluids held back. I try to get up physically but feel like I'm in a struggling state of SP, for a few minutes I'm forcing to regain physical movement but can sense that there is something else keeping me locked in that state and I'm fighting it for the sake of emptying bladder. After much struggle I regain control and head straight for the toilet in a groggy state.

September 6, 2010

Raw Food and Macrobiotic Combo

While I have looked into Raw Foods and implementing it (very slowly) into my diet I know I'm not ready to eat like that 100% so I will be looking into Macrobiotic diet.

So far macrobiotic seems ideal - in the warmer seasons I will be eating more raw, less cooked and in the cooler seasons more cooked and less raw.

Sole and Blackstrap Molasses

My main goal when it comes to nutrition is to eat only foods that increases one's health and vitality - so far it has been quite a mission. I am eating mostly vegan foods and on occasions vegetarian meals where I allow some dairy products. While I don't like to be strict when it comes to food I have had some unpleasant side effects from eating dairy after some period of exclusion which is motivating me to get off it completely.

A lot of people have noticed how neurotic I've become about ommitting certain foods that are actually toxic. I tend to ramble on about it. I could sense from them that they find it annoying but I can't help myself because these same people are also breaking out with some very unpleasant conditions which is motivating me even more to change my eating habits.

I have already excluded quite a bit out of my diet, but now focusing mainly on including foods constantly seeking out ways to increase nutrition.

I am now taking sole daily in the mornings and at night I have 1tbsp of BS molasses with a warm glass of water. These two are like my daily supplement. Right after consumption of these two my fingers fizz with energy, I can feel the same fizzing energy circulating in my legs. One of the major change I've noticed lately is an increase in energy throughout the day although I have now reverted back to my usual sleep pattern (7 to 8 hours sleep).

I have done so much research on healthy foods that I feel like I know too much to just carry on eating the way I have been doing so for a long time - it is making me more aware of my addictions.

September 2, 2010


Had several interesting dreams this morning.

Cannibis Presciption
I think I'm watching TV but I'm inside it. A man is talking about a couple who have to get prescription for cannabis for their child who is suffering from some cryptic illness. I keep thinking that the cannbis is not necesarry and that it is more likely to be a deficiency and something that eating healthy could cure. I get the sense that it's the 1960's and start wondering how many channels were broadcasted back then.

Sexual Dream
These dreams occur on a daily basis, the scene is always different but always erotic in nature. In these dreams carnal desires play out. This particular dream there was none of the physical action instead it was headed in that direction but woke up aroused.

There's a third dream I wanted to write about but there's a complete blank right now.

Squint and Grimace

Last night as I fell asleep my eyes started to squint and slowly face would contort with puckered lips which made me laugh. I thought about how the Kundalini is detoxifying but wondered what the whole facial distortion was about.

I understand that the the inner tingles and buzz I've been feeling internally are to do with changes to the nerves. Perhaps overall every sensation is actually related to the changes in the brain meaning that every sensation is a response to the internal changes in the brain.

There was also some gasping breathing going on.