March 11, 2011

Kundalini Moves

Ever since Salvia has exploded open this whole other world, my awareness of it has remained open in my waking hours. I could feel the energy move and one way to describe the movement is that similar to a child playing with a doll - in this case I'm the doll.

A few times whilst standing up breathed, relaxed and let go and it, they, kundalini not sure how to refer to it anymore moved me. Usually a swaying movement tipping left and right, a few times I tried to let go fully realizing that I would lose balance and fall.

It seems like they are trying to make me fall over - to fall flat down, luckily I have enough control over it but no idea what their intentions are.

I should mention a few days ago some lump has developed on the right side of my neck - at first I was concerned thinking it may be a tumor. It was so hard thought maybe my bone popped out, when I press it there's pain.
Yesterday relaxed to see what they will do. My head moved leaning towards the right with rest of the body still then it moved to the left and as it stretched that lump really hurt. Then head forward and back. As neck stretched I was reminded of the 5 tibetans and realized they're loosening something within the body and no doubt this is something that carries on in my sleep and could explain the reason for the broken sleep. Then my whole body swayed within this energy and I could feel it like a living pulsing bubble wrapped around me.

It's Alive!

Early morning, still dark outside I awakened and consciousness housed in everything I was viewing. The view was completely alive. I had this sense that what I was viewing as what was outside, this same everything was inside me.

March 7, 2011

Waves of Grief

Felt this intense depression, grieving of a loss yet I don't know what I just lost. It occured when doing some research on health.

Few hours later a thought came into my head, urine therapy. I know I read about before but it was just a disturbing notion, besides I would think one would have to be on a very pure diet in order to drink their own urine.

Looked into it and all of a sudden it feels so right. The grief is still there, but it comes and goes and I could tell when it comes because it is just too unbearable my eyes well up. It feels like there is someone else inside me feeling the emotion and I feel for it.

March 5, 2011

K Symptoms Since Recent Salvia Explorations

Many K symptoms include:

  • Rocking of body
  • Tremors in legs and other parts
  • Energy across legs
  • Head pressure
  • Body Swaying
  • Encapsulated by energy
  • Energy around eyes fluctuating - hard to describe
  • night time coughing in sleep - may have to do with this feeling of wanting to escape, taking in negative from those around me? and chugging down on junk food (like chocolate) - clearly emotional stuff blowing out of proportion.

March 4, 2011

Projection of Consciousness

Had many dreams throughout the night - so long I can't even think of writing down quick notes. So far all I'm doing is jotting down tips that I'm getting in my dreams that are relevant to the material plane of existence, such as using almond oil, getting sunlight, sleeping at 9am and things like that.

I didn't recall the projection immediately had to really think about all the dreams. Recalled I was awoken at 4:30am surprised it wasn't 1:15 or 2am because that had become the norm.

Going back to sleep did not take so long. I had a projection that by appearance was very much like most of the APs I've had in the past. I was out of the body, flowing across the wall, then down the floor and as this was occurring I had a deeper understanding of what was occurring. My consciousness was moving through various points. It is like everything material is a mask, something that can be worn by consciousness, and I was wearing the wall then I was wearing the floor and as I was sinking down as usual I knew there was going to be some darkness for a while - I thought maybe I'm going deep within the Earth.

I recall a moment where I was trying to grasp something, to combine with it. This same thing occured a few days ago in the middle of my sleep.

I know that if I had absolute control of this - meaning I could project by will - it means I can position and house my consciousness by will in anything I perceive, in the Earth and even beyond that. It's more than just remote viewing.

It's like there are many stations, consider the location of the physical body as the starting station and the moon as the destination. Consciousness can move freely through the many material forms meaning as I move my consciousness melds within the wall, then the window, surrounding air as though the path led all the way to the moon. It's not necessary though to have a conscious awareness of passing by these various forms or objects - there is also speed, we could just end up straight away at our destination in a snap. This is just another interesting facet of projecting that I feel inspired to explore.

There's also the astral body - a copy of the physical body without being bounded by physical limits.

There's teleportation and bi-location which operate with the physical body, I think for this to be successful body needs to be very strong and healthy, there needs to be a great amount of energy.

There are of course many abilities that have yet to be consciously untapped. Though I feel inspired to start consciously projecting my main focus now seems to be on self-inquiry.