Change of Blog

Shifted to another blog where I changed title and added some extra categories. Initially decided to make that other blog private to see just how deeper I am willing to go in writing more personally.

In the spirit of sharing I have now decided to share all further writings I have written since my absence from this blog.

New Blog

Reality In Reverse

Some day last week before bedtime I put forth the intention for my dreams to awaken me within the dream, so that I may begin to take control and direct the dream consciously (Lucid dreaming).

I started dreaming a lot of upside downess of my current reality. In these dreams there are a lot of things in reverse. For eg. in one dream I was getting off a bus and decided to check out the library. This library was changed dramatically, all computers were on the ground floor where in physical reality there are bookshelves on ground floor and the computers on the top floor, plus a small museum. I headed upstairs giving some thought to the dramatic change however I accepted this change simply because I have not been to this library in a long time. Once I got upstairs there was a lot of strangeness that were definite signs pointing out to me that I was dreaming, for eg. there was another set of stairs which were upside down, completely in reverse and a series of writing spiralling upwards. Had a series of dreams like this but still just did not get the hint.

I started amping my intention and now I am beginning to act out these dreams in the physical reality. Yesterday morning I was dreaming that I was eating some kind of soup from a tin and I've stopped eating tinned food for a long time now, a hint to wake up I guess. I look at the rim of the tin and notice a moulding fungus growth, out of revolt I head to the bin spitting out the remaining soup left in my mouth. Continuously spitting I wake up to physical reality, on my bed spitting out on my pillow.

My intention for the next attempt is to program a certain anomaly which I will recognise as a symbol to help me realize I'm dreaming. Haven't thought of what this anomaly will be but when I get time will ponder it some more.

Astral Death and Incidents

Attempted AP at 6:30am with no specific intention but I was thinking a little about making a trip to Source/God/Creator whatever label you want to apply.

There were about 5 areoplanes passing by - seriously annoying. As I entered a deeper relaxed state my ears had a wooshing airy sensation. I managed to get out, through the garden I was floating up towards the dark sky. Looked down, there was a black cat staring at me with an unusual expression. I read it as a 'farewell'. The look on the cat was definitely an omen. Everything felt really unusual and suddenly it dawned on me that I was in the process of dying. I kept getting this feeling that something was wrong with my physical body. I remember clearly thinking "Whoa I don't want to die. So many unfulfilled dreams."

Despite these thoughts I was calm and composed I thought of my precious body - that is usually enough to get back only this time I was shooting faster deeper into space. Started to feel a little desperate. It was pitch black, suddenly became aware of a wave of energy at the crown of my head flowing outwards down to my neck. My brain was a wobbling mass of jelly. A pressure was squishing my head causing a crushing pain. Wondering where I was I peeped open my right eye looking at the surroundings of my room. The pain did not concern me since I was glad to be back. I tried to raise my head when the wave of energy came to a halt.

My head felt like it weighed tons - I was exhausted and rested my head to get some much needed sleep. There were too many different incidents that took place after this until 9am.

One incident my upper body was raised up (in the physical) with a hissing sound escaping my mouth.

In another incident I found myself being guided around a piece of land. I came upon a tree, with luscious illuminating beautiful leaves. I touch the leaves looking out into the vast fields of land in awe, imagining everything that I can create in this already beautiful space. I can feel a presence next to me but my mind is so preoccupied I don't think to observe it - besides it seems like it's invisible. With the beginning of a heavy rainfall a male voice began to speak. "The only downside to this land is that it has a propensity to create a lot of mould." I thought that maybe that could change, it was of little concern. This incident is particularly interesting as one of my recent intention to manifest has been to aqcuire a piece of land which I could cultivate, ever since then I have been having a lot of vivid nature dreams.

Messages In A Dream

This morning I dreamt about a lot of stuff, but became aware in one particular dream.

It began with a large room filled with people, there is a piece of paper where everyone present is required to sign. There is something special about signing this paper and I'm really looking forward to get my turn. There are two friends next to me, after they sign I am the last person left. I hold the pen ready to sign but there is no space left. I am agitated that my friends would do this almost as if they intentionally wanted to leave me out. I am incredibly angry, finding a scrap piece of paper I begin to write my name in a bold classical type font. At first I write vertically and correct my mistake by writing horizontally.

As I write the letters of my name I get lost - almost zoned out. This state is trance like, a bit of my waking consciousness begins to emerge and I try to fix some letters. I can hear a background voice getting more audible. The voice is repeating the same sentence over and over again like a broken record - with each repetition a certain strength is added. The effect is a complete awareness at which point I hear the voice clearly speaking to me in a gentle rhythmic tone.

"Five years ago something happened to alter the course of history. Your understanding of this is paramount - now, pay attention..."

I became aware of plants surrounding me. Images began to flash illustrating certain activities, unfortunately as I awoke I could not appreciate a full recall of this. In fact whatever that image was, is now just completely incomprehensible to me. I wonder if this was a contact with Angels as I have read that dream is one of the many ways they communicate with us.

Establishing Angel Contact

A few days ago I have been looking into Angels, sudden interest has been sparked and as I've mentioned before I'm opening up to more possibilities.

After I started feeling really sick the other day, which was my fault as I went from eating healthy vegan for almost 3 weeks only to revert back to junk food, I asked Archangel Raphael to assist me in the healing process - to speed it up. I went into a relaxed mode and my left leg clenched and then relaxed followed by my right leg, back and forth this continued for 5 minutes and I continued to relax. Within an hour I was cleared.

Yesterday I decided to establish contact with any angels that could assist me. My intention for the session was to find out what my intentions were before I got here and whether I am on track and who better to inform me than God's emissaries.

During the session there was a lot of involuntary movements which is one of the reason why I've cut down on meditation. I let these movements pass and soon found myself intensely relaxed. Mentally there was a lot of garbled thoughts entering my mind. After 20 minutes ended the session. So, I didn't exactly get any answers but this morning had a dream where I think some connection was made.