Waves of Grief

Felt this intense depression, grieving of a loss yet I don't know what I just lost. It occured when doing some research on health.

Few hours later a thought came into my head, urine therapy. I know I read about before but it was just a disturbing notion, besides I would think one would have to be on a very pure diet in order to drink their own urine.

Looked into it and all of a sudden it feels so right. The grief is still there, but it comes and goes and I could tell when it comes because it is just too unbearable my eyes well up. It feels like there is someone else inside me feeling the emotion and I feel for it.